i feel lost. everyone feels lost at times.
and now i do.
it's feels like.. i don't belong to nothing and nobody.
aky is not like me. he is the bearer of the word of freedom. he belongs to everything and everywhere.
sometimes i get too angry with him. he is very reckless. he always makes the stupidest decisions.
«i don't know if you have ever heard the word "future" or not.»
boundless happiness shines in his eyes. «yea.. zayn always say it.»
i sigh. «you should have goals. like i do. and try hard for them.»
«we can achieve it together.» he says, smiling innocently.
«i can do it myself.»
«but you'll reach your limits. i guess i did.»
«i have no limits.»
he frowns. and it's the first time i see aky like that. but still, he's so harmless. «at the end of the day, we have our friends! and they'll help me if i was tired.» he smiles again. «i trust them.»
«i trust nobody.»
«but i do! you talked about goal. my friends over my goals!»
«i don't care what i have to do to win. nothing is over my goals.»
«but i'll do anything for them. as long as we're friends.»
«as long as they're useful.»
«ah come on azriel! enjoy the now.»
«no. i prefer have plan for my every single step.»
«you should wait for the chance.»
«i'll create THAT chance.»
now i realise. there are to types of people in the worlds. some people like little aky. and some people like me.
«you'll see aky, my brother. people like me will survive.»
«nah. aiko is not like you at all. and she survived. and she has a real better position then you have, bro.»
«then she'll die. you can't win with kindness in this world.»
she'll know.. he'll know.. everyone will know. kindness is the most stupid decision ever.